This Is What It's Like

Give me, the truth to me,
and tell me of what I see,
a feeling there must be an answer for me


I'm waiting, waiting on a sunny day
Gonna chase the clouds away
Waiting on a sunny day

This Year & Beyond

This blog has been running for about thirty months now. I find it incredible that I have stuck with it given that I have so few followers. Most of the time it feels as though I am talking to myself (much like life) and that there are so few people that actually care about it anymore or even if ever at all. But it was nice to share what I learnt and did here in Berlin with my family and friends. I have never been a regular phone call and email kind of guy so it was a also just a way to stay in contact.

It started as a personal diary, to publish online the only real creative thing I found that I could do well. I posted photos, gave reasons why I posted them and then posted some more. Then it developed a little bit more. I added lyrics to accompany some of the photos, to express what I felt at the time.

These days everything seems so much different. I once thought I was quite good at street/documentary photography. Now I think it doesn't suit me so much anymore. I have changed the focus of my photography now too. Objects have turned to people. I am not as shy to take photos of friends or to set up shoots with people I barely know. I have reinvented myself in a way, adapted to what is happening around me and tried to improve. Winter is always difficult though. The cold and lack of light diminishes the motivation to go outside let alone look for something special. So there hasn't been so many new images posted the past few months.

My focus is different this year though. What once was a hobby is now starting to turn into a career. I have some weddings booked already for this summer. I aim to improve my portfolio and really go for it next year, to build a name for myself in Berlin, Germany and Europe. Last October I released my website but already I have plans to redesign, to focus more on the wedding part of my work and seperate it from the artistic side. In the near future this blog will be replaced by a wedding blog also to promote my work on a more regular basis.

I have realised that life goes far too fast (for me anyway) and I need to act quickly or else I will never catch up. So here I am. Planning big things for myself. And it will happen.

Many times I fail to express myself when writing. As usual, Tom Waits can say it better...

Who knows where the sidewalk ends
Well, the road will turn and the road will bend
They always say he marks the sparrow's fall
How can anyone believe it all?

Well, the band has stopped playing but we keep dancing

The world keeps turning, the world keeps turning