Through the woods, and frosted moors
Past the snow-caked hedgerows I
Bed down upon the drifting snow
Sleep beneath the melting sky
I whisper all your names
I know not where you are
But somewhere, somewhere, somewhere here
Upon this wild abandoned star
This blog has been running for about thirty months now. I find it incredible that I have stuck with it given that I have so few followers. Most of the time it feels as though I am talking to myself (much like life) and that there are so few people that actually care about it anymore or even if ever at all. But it was nice to share what I learnt and did here in Berlin with my family and friends. I have never been a regular phone call and email kind of guy so it was a also just a way to stay in contact.
It started as a personal diary, to publish online the only real creative thing I found that I could do well. I posted photos, gave reasons why I posted them and then posted some more. Then it developed a little bit more. I added lyrics to accompany some of the photos, to express what I felt at the time.
These days everything seems so much different. I once thought I was quite good at street/documentary photography. Now I think it doesn't suit me so much anymore. I have changed the focus of my photography now too. Objects have turned to people. I am not as shy to take photos of friends or to set up shoots with people I barely know. I have reinvented myself in a way, adapted to what is happening around me and tried to improve. Winter is always difficult though. The cold and lack of light diminishes the motivation to go outside let alone look for something special. So there hasn't been so many new images posted the past few months.
My focus is different this year though. What once was a hobby is now starting to turn into a career. I have some weddings booked already for this summer. I aim to improve my portfolio and really go for it next year, to build a name for myself in Berlin, Germany and Europe. Last October I released my website but already I have plans to redesign, to focus more on the wedding part of my work and seperate it from the artistic side. In the near future this blog will be replaced by a wedding blog also to promote my work on a more regular basis.
I have realised that life goes far too fast (for me anyway) and I need to act quickly or else I will never catch up. So here I am. Planning big things for myself. And it will happen.
Many times I fail to express myself when writing. As usual, Tom Waits can say it better...
Who knows where the sidewalk ends
Well, the road will turn and the road will bend
They always say he marks the sparrow's fall
How can anyone believe it all?
Well, the band has stopped playing but we keep dancing
The world keeps turning, the world keeps turning
Dream of West Virginia, or of the British Isles
'Cause when you are dreaming, you see for miles and miles.
When you are much older, remember when we sat
At midnight on the windowsill, and had this little chat
And dream, come on and dream, come on and dream, and dream, and dream...
And I called out your name
Like the name of a coming hurricane
I called out your name
But you were caught in a heavenly silver rain
You and I are not the same
We're divided by the smoke of an aeroplane
This image annoys me because it reminds me of a lot of things I cannot do. It looks somewhat like a painting I think, but I can't paint. The last time I tried it was horrible. I can't draw, I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't drive a car. Hell, looking at this photo and this boat... I can't even swim!
But there is one thing I can do for sure and that is take a photograph, better than most people who say they can and wish they could. This may not be the best example, but just scroll down, click back onto my old posts and see what I am talking about if you don't know already. Have a look at my website, share it with others. I plan to do a lot of things in the next year or two. Being a professional-talk-no-shit-photographer is one of them!